nam zavtra exat v san francisco, delat privivku.
ne znau, k sogalen'u, kak v rossii eto proisxodit i v kakie sroki, no tut delaut cheture raza, v 2,4,6 i 12 mesyacev, po dva ukola i kapli za odin raz.
vot zavtra, naprimer, budet privivka sazu ge ot 11 boleznei
v proshlui raz on dovolno legko ee perenes, ne smotrya na to, chto doktor predupregdal, chto on moget plakat. no togda bula mama ryadom i mne vse bulo nepochem :)
a vot zaaavtra- zavtra ya odna poedu tuda, i odna ge potom budu s nim mus'katsya...vot sigu, i zaranee bous :)

segodnya tri mesyaca kak mu ne videli papu
papu, muga, boyfrienda, otca i lubovnika
sootvetstvenno vse eti cheture ipostasi, kotorue on predstavlyaet- otsutstvuut v moei/nashei gizni
sootvetstvenno givu ya odna. bez "prisutstviya" otca, no s rebenkom
sootvetvenno kuzya uge ego i ne pomnit i tem bolee ne vspomnit

sootvetstvenno ya nervnichau. nam letet. 17 chasov. da dage ne eto. nam kak-to nado vmeste git. spat. lubit.ne tolko vdvoem, no vtroem.

letim v evropu v sredu. nugno srochno privodit sebya v poryadok.muga ublagat nugno, vagno i verno.

nanyala nyanu, poshla k parikmaxeru.
nyanya late, hairdresser late, na chas pozge nachali. poka strigka, smuvka, pokraska, vse ugasno dolgo. obernulos pochti v pyat chasov. Boge-Boge, nesus na vsex porax domoi, gonu svou bmw'shechku, chut ne vrezaus v stolb po doroge.
Kuzechka, malenkii, plachet, krovinochka, golodnui..

zaletau domoi- on u nyani na rukax, glazki zaplakannue, pritixshii, obigennui.. dumala razrudaus...nabrosilsya na menya, vse chto smog s'el, vusosal,otvalilsya..

zabul pro svoi obidki cherez pyat minut, opyat ulubaetsya, lastitsya...

a ya, s moim beshenno igrauchim materinskim instinktom, vse peregivau, vse rasstraivaus, chto malenkogo, ostavila, bez edu, kak on tut plakal... ugas-ugas, chto so mnoi priroda sdelala :)

smotrit po storonam, povorachivaet vo vse storony golovu; dovolno dolgo moget nabludat za chevelyachimisya list'yami ili krutyachimsya ventilyatorom- zavoragivaut..

ugasno boikii i bustrui.. vse govoryat, chto ochen aktivnui. vchera v borders bula devochka, ee papa govorit- oi, a vot malchik takogo ge vozrasta, kak nasha devochka...
ya xidno sprashivau: a skolko vam mesyacev?
PYAT!!!!

a nam TRI govoru ya negno-negno, znaya, chto oni ugasno rasstroyatsya, a ya budu potom vsem gordo rasskazuvat.. :)
vot rasskazuvau:

nam TRI mesyaca, a vedem mu sebya sravnimo s tem, kak vedet pyatimesyachnaya devochka. mne dage pokazalos, chto Kuzik aktivnee, chem ona.

prelesten.
paxnet detskim zabutum schast'em
vuzuvaet umilitelnue slezu
nelzya bez ulubki
lublu bezumno
very alert
glaza po ploshke
zrya nikogda ne plachet
udivlyaetsya zerkalu
peregivau ochen
udivitelno laskov
obogau bezmerno
belenkii, na golove pushok
ulubaetsya vsem podryad
pekrasnee vsex na svete
glaza golubue
ne tak strashno, kak vse govorili
givot ne bolit
xvataet igrushki rukami
zlitsya ugasno, kogda ne moget polzti
6800
purely nursed
boitsya smuva v tualete
begaem po utram
luboputen i bustr
perevorachivaetsya so spinu na givot
stoit na nogax, kogda dergish
v mashine ne plachet
kupaemsya v bolshoi vannoi
edem v evropu.

Itak. Ya peredeluvau sei gurnal v gurnal o rebenke. O moeim zamechatelnom, chudesnom, belenkom, luchistom rebenke. O moei kroshke, krovinochke i kapelke..

Vsem, komu neinteresno, pogaluista- dosvidaniya.
Vsem, kto brave enough poprobovat- free trial.
Vsem, kto ne protiv- you are more then welcome to stay.

I just got one today at work
Am I really going to be a mom that soon? :)) I got so much gifts, congratulations, questions, concerns, advices..
I've been trying to forget about that fact, to shift it somewhere far away, to shut up my memory, to get busy with the other stuff.. but he is here, moving, kicking, showing, reminding me..

I only have 12 weeks left, congratulations, Taisiya
Congratulations, you have a wonderful and sleepless time ahead of you
Congratulations, you are not alone and will never feel lonely anymore
Congratulatulations, you will be a great mother
Congratulations, you are loved and very well beloved

вот мне кажется, что она разная, если боль разная

моя головная боль- колючая, яркая, сиреневая, в клубочке; когда болит всегда пытаюсь ее распутать, размотать, развести...
моя женская боль - коричневая, мягкая, томная, тянущаяся; ее нужно разглаживать, разнеживать, любить
моя мышечная боль- синяя, переливающаяся, смеющаяся; с этой болью легче всего-ей нужно обьяснять, соглашаться с ней, разрешать ей болеть, гордиться ею...

chto-to podobnoe nashemu poligonu, tol'ko kostumu pokruche, da vupivka podoroge..

net, no vu posmotrite, ved bespodobno,a? Sidit takaya baba, v srednevekov'e vysa odetaya, zato s kakim ob'ektivom! :))